Story of MY Life

Aren't you tired of seeing the same people everyday and doing the exact thing everyday? Well, I do. I woke up in the morning, getting ready for school. At school, I see the same person all over again. Bunch of strangers walking passed through me and all they said was "Hey". Some even didn't know that I exist.

I barely have any friends. Why, because I feel very insecure about how I look, always. I've been surrounded by beautiful and perfect girls and I'm here, look exactly like an ugly potato. I'm a loner or in other words, "that freak kid who sits alone in the dark corner". Well, 'cause I am.

And then I get home, I mean straight home. Without lepak at mamak, padang, kedai runcit or anything. Straight back home and go straight to bed. I usually on my phone, on twitter and whasapping my friends until maghrib.

I did my homework after I took a shower until, prolly 9-10. And went back on phone till 2-3 am till I fall asleep. Yeah, that's pretty much how's my life so far. Pathetic isn't ?

I'm not strong enough..

.

I screamed, I cried,

No one seemed to care.

So I decided,

Decided to keep everything inside.

I’m not strong enough to face this world,

This world that I’m living in is too cruel.

Maybe this is test from God,

That I might fail soo bad.

It’s too much for me to suffer,

I can’t bear it any longer.

Maybe this is my own fault,

To let everything to fall apart.

I cut myself,

Never too deep,

But deep enough to feel the pain,

Deep enough to see the blood.

My little heart is breaking,

And I can’t do anything.

All I do is keep blaming myself,

For having such a horrible life.

Oh how I wish I have a bulletproof heart,

So that I can be alright.

But my little heart is fragile,

That’s why it breaks quite easily.

I may be smiling, I may be laughing,

But inside, I’m dying.

No one seems to understand me,

And I want no one to care about me.

How I wish I could restart my own life,

So that I can make everything fine.

But I know, we live only once,

And I can do nothing anymore.

True Love?

Have you ever fall in love with someone? Cinta tak semestinya berakhir dengan happiness. Nak tahu cinta apa yang berakhir dengan happiness? Tengok lah parents you ols. That's what true love is. Cinta is not about kissing and hugging in public. It's about falling for someone that manage to take a good care of our heart and someone that's willing to kongsi suka dan duka bersama. Bak kata orang melayu "sehidup semati" kata kan. True love exist ke? Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ofc lah exist. Tu haa mak bapak kita tu. True love lah tu~~. But, is it too early for me to think about love? My mom told me it's too early for me to think about boys and love. So, means that it's still too early for me to know who's my true love lah? hm..... but one thing, kalau boleh, I want him to be my true love. Yeah I know it's still early but nothing is impossible kan kalau kita berusaha and keep berdoa? Yeah yeah, malas ahh fikir pasal ni. Fikir pasal studies aku lagi better kan? kann? yeah... ahha. k lah. ciao :*

Desert Camp.

Okay, my family and ada lah satu lagi family ni pergi desert camp for 3 days and 2 nights. It was pretty fun :). At first, when I first say the camp, I was like "NO WAYY!! I WANT TO GO HOME!!" Like, duhhh, who wants to spend three days and two nights at a place like this. 

*okay nampak ada khemah kecik tu? Haa. tu lah tempat yang aku tinggal for 3 days and 2 nights.

*Tu haa yang terbukak tu lah dapur. Yes, DAPUR!

See? You guise nak ke stay kat tempat macam tu? Ermm, probably a big no kan? So, we arrived at night. Like, 7pm or something coz my family sesat kat tengah padang pasir. So, we have to call the other family tuk selamat kan kiteorang. LOL. THE BEST mehh. So, yeah. Sampai sampai je, FREAKING HUNGRY!!!!! so, apa lagi, keluar kan bags from kereta and terus get ready nak makan. So, 

*Tengah get ready :D

*My mama pon tolong nak ready :D

*Voila~. Dah nak siap :D

*tak sabar sebenar nya nak bakar binatang ni semua.

*Papa and uncle apa tah tengah nyala kan pemanggang

*Nampak tak ada api tu~~?? 

*Mama tengah memanggang. Ahha. 

*YUMMEYH!! OMG. 

*Almost siapp!!!

M*Okay, dah makan and kenyang semua. So, peace~

*Again, PEACE~

So, that night was dope. Makanan semua best siaa. No joke. Well, for me memang ahh semua makanan best kan :D. So, yeah........... pukul 1am kiteorang tidur. OMG. only god knows how freezing I am that night. tidur atas conferter and tak berselimut. 'cause we ran out of selimut -.-. So, aku sorang je tak berselimut. LOL. berkorban for family lah kata kan. So, aku tak boleh tidur lah kan. Then, tengah malam, jengjengjeng~~ HUJAN~~. Double the coldness~. Okay, then, kebesokkan harinya. Breakfast gila banyak~~. and and kiteorang main ATV. apa itu ATV? tengok ah sendiri. 

*Breakfast~

*Nasi goreng~

*Okay, ni lah ATV nya.

*nampak fun kan? memang fun~~

*Danial tengah main ATV

*That uncle main ATV

*Budak kecik main ATV

Aku main ATV tak de? LOL. Ada tapi tak de orang nak snap pic kan. No one in my family actually knows how to use camera tu. So, yeah :(............... okay, so far, that day went so fun and great. We played that ATV thing for the whole day. So, petang tu aku macam TIRED GILA!!!!! so, aku tidur like, 2-3 hours. Ye lah, the whole night aku tak tidur kan. so, tidur lah. OMG, sumpah panas. Ye lah, Saudi kan. Terlalu sejuk and terlalu panas -.-. So, yeah....... okay. Then, aku bangun je tidur, tengok tengok untie Mala datang tengok aku tidur macam kehapa tah -.-. OMg, malu I okayy. so, aku bangun je, mama ajak pergi pasar orang badwi.  So, nak tengok pasar badwi macam mana? okay macam ni. 

*Tu semua hand made weh!!!

*kay, ni lah pasal orang badwi......

*Again, pasar badwi..............

*RADIO ANTIK kepunyaan orang badwi :P

Ahha. So, macammana? tak de menda pon weh. sumpah menyesal pergi sana. Ingat ada lah macam pasar kat Malaysia. Tu excited je nak gi. sampai sampai, OMG!! K fine, but tengok je kedai macam ni, tapi my mom and untie Mala spent more or less 1 ribu jugak lah kan -.-. So, balik rumah dah nak dekat malam. So, apa lagi? Get ready tuk BBQ lah kann. Ahha. 

*Papa and Danial

*Sesi memanggang :D

*Ufffs :D

*OMG!! THAT'S ME!!!!! nampak? 

*AGAIN, ME!!! :D Ahahahaahaha.

Okay, then habis je BBQ, kiteorang tengok CD cerita Hantu bonceng and Kongsi. Blueek -.-. So, aku tidur awal. This time, aku ada selimut :D. Ahhahahaahaa. Heaven tidur. 

Kebesokkan hari nya, macam biasa lah kan, ada breakfast. but before that aku main layang with the kids :D. 

*Itu layang layang aku but papa aku yang pegang

*muka budak lepas kena bara kat kaki dia. Hahahaha. Kesian

*BREAKFAST!!!!! Sumpa best and HEY LOOK! There's me :DD

*Time packing packing nak balik :/

It's pretty fun though kat sana. So yeah, kiteorang packing packing and tim eotw nak balik, AKU BUAT KAWAN BARU!!! nak meet my new friends? He he he :P

 Aren't they are so ADORABLE? Look, most of 'em even look at the camera and "senyum senyum kambing" Ahha. They are so cute. Nak usik diorang, but diorang seems takut -.-. So  yeah, tangkap gambar je lah. He he he. lepas tu terus balik. I slept for the whole journey. Okay that's all.  bye :D

Oh btw, these are some pictures yang aku tak letak kat atas. So yeah....................

*Mama and papa :>

*Diorang and kiteorang :D

*mama and papa lagi :D

That's all for today. Adios :*

Dangg. my iPod naik gila. Hilang semua lagu in it and I have to download balik t(-.-. I told my mom about it and she was like "Hahaha. Bagus lah. senyap sikit rumah.) Okay, mama sangat kejam :(. Dulu aku ada 300++ lagu and sekarang aku ada..... kejap nak check....... ada 53 songs je  :OO. Oh. My. God -.-. It took me FOREVER wehh nak download semua lagu tu :'(. K lah, nak sambung download. Adios :*