I'm not strong enough..

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I screamed, I cried,

No one seemed to care.

So I decided,

Decided to keep everything inside.

I’m not strong enough to face this world,

This world that I’m living in is too cruel.

Maybe this is test from God,

That I might fail soo bad.

It’s too much for me to suffer,

I can’t bear it any longer.

Maybe this is my own fault,

To let everything to fall apart.

I cut myself,

Never too deep,

But deep enough to feel the pain,

Deep enough to see the blood.

My little heart is breaking,

And I can’t do anything.

All I do is keep blaming myself,

For having such a horrible life.

Oh how I wish I have a bulletproof heart,

So that I can be alright.

But my little heart is fragile,

That’s why it breaks quite easily.

I may be smiling, I may be laughing,

But inside, I’m dying.

No one seems to understand me,

And I want no one to care about me.

How I wish I could restart my own life,

So that I can make everything fine.

But I know, we live only once,

And I can do nothing anymore.